Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Did you know that I am into photography? Most of you do, but some of you probably dont know that I am thinking about doing it as my own business. In order to do this, I need your help! I need to have a portfolio for my clients to view. So, if you need pictures taken for any event (seniors, weddings, engagements, bridals, modeling, family, etc) or know anybody who does, make my name the first thing you remember =). This would help me out tremendously! Thank you so much for your support!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

My dad

For those of you who don't know, my hero and best friend passed away last Sunday, January 18th at 5:00 AM. He fought lung cancer for almost 2 years, but it eventually got the best of him. If you did not know my dad, I feel sorry for you. He was the greatest man who ever lived! He was an inspiration to many and an idol to even more! The most important thing in his life was his family! He would do ANYTHING for his girls! He always made sure we had what we needed even if it meant working from sun up to sun down! He worked hard, but he played harder. He believed that if you are not going to use it to enjoy your life, what's the point of making money? I had a bond with him that no one could quite understand. He was my everything! All while growing up I missed out on many things (thank God) for fear of disappointing him. 
He was always there for me no matter what, and I was always there for him the same. When I heard he had been taken to the hospital I immediately jumped a plane to Boise. I got to the hospital on Thursday, January 15th and didn't leave his side except to eat. His last 2 days I was there from 8:00 in the morning on Saturday until he passed at 5:00 Sunday morning. I left one time to go to the cafeteria, but other than that, I was on the chair next to his bed holding his hand and singing to him. I sat there all night long Saturday night until around 3:00 AM. I held my hand to his throat so that I could feel his shallow breaths. Then, I finally realized that he was holding on for something... but what? then I remembered that he had told us all that he didn't want to go in front of his daughters. So, I woke up my mom, asked her to sit by him, and fell asleep on the cot in his room from 3-5 when my mom woke me up telling me that he was gone. It was such a blessing yet such a curse. He was peaceful and pain-free, but I was left down here all alone!! 

I understand that it was best for him, but I guess I am just selfish. I want him here with me!! I NEED him here with me! Where will I go for the wisdom and guidance now?? Who will I call when I just want to vent? I will never stop missing him, and he will forever be my shining star! 
I love you Daddy, with all my heart!!
I miss you every day!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Sick kids

Wow! I never would have thought that having your kids be sick would be so hard. My son got Rotavirus last Saturday. I ended up taking to the emergency room the next Monday after he passed out on the floor. He had been throwing up and had BAD diarrhea. He was all lethargic just laying around. His eyes looked far away, and he wouldn't sit up or stay awake for more that 30 minutes. His diaper rash had gotten so bad from the diarrhea, his bum was bleeding in a couple of spots. When w got to the hospital, they told us that they were going to admit him into the other hospital for a few days because it seemed a lot worse than normal. Also, he was so dehidrated, they had to try 3 different times to get a vein for the IV. They transporteed us by ambulance to the other hospital and started to work on him. He was still so lethargic, he didn't even move when they had to poke him to draw blood! I was scared out of my mind!! Anyways... long story short... we were in the hospital for 2 days and 2 nights! The point of the story is that it's hell when you're baby is hurting and there's nothing you can do about it! And it's the most frustrating thing ever when you have 2 kids who are sick, and you can only be with one of them at a time! It's gotta be the hardest thing for a mom to do. I just thank God tthat my kids are ok and healthy again!